Hey there. The date is October 19th, 2011. I hope you’re all having a good week. I have been working hard this week to get ahead in my studies so I can enjoy Fall Break this weekend at home with my family without having to do homework. This semester has certainly, and I can say this with no doubt in my mind, been this most difficult semester of my life, all circumstances, school and otherwise, considered. I have been working almost nonstop, with an attempt at a weekly Sabbath to play some card games with Susie or watch some football on Sundays after church. This semester has been difficult. By the grace of God, I have been steadfast in my time with the Lord and he has blessed me.
Ever since I was a punk freshman a couple of years ago, I have prayed hard for wisdom–wisdom just generally speaking, not in one specific area or discipline. God has been faithful in providing me with a wisdom that I certainly have not developed from within myself, but from the loving counsel of wise men of God from whom I am blessed to learn, and from the Word of God which speaks truth into my life daily. The growth I have experienced since I really started to pray for wisdom about this time a couple of years ago is such that it could have only come from the Lord. God has provided me with an atmosphere and a group of people that incite growth beyond that which I could accomplish on my own. I am so thankful for the wise people in my life who have informed me in matters of life and theology. God has certainly blessed me with a certain wisdom that I could not have attained without the power of prayer and the guidance of the Holy Spirit.
My theology and general knowledge of God’s character and his Word have grown exponentially and I cannot really explain it. I mean yeah, I’m in Bible classes, learning all kind of things pertaining to life and godliness, but I have not, I suppose you could say, been able to articulate such wisdom and theology ever in my life. God has provided me with the ability to seek and speak wisdom in ways that surely must be an answer to prayer. There have been times when I am preaching or leading a small group or speaking in class where I am presented with a problem or question that catches me off-guard. Yet, despite my lack of knowledge, I speak, and I speak truth. I really can’t explain it, and it all really sounds mystical to me. But I can tell you there have been times when I have been preaching, at Miracle Camp for example, and I will get down off of the stage not even remembering half of what I said apart from my written notes. And, oddly enough, it is often these forgotten lessons that are most often remembered and applied by the listeners. I have never really expressed this astonishment to Susie or anyone else with me when I preach, but I will get down from the stage or out from behind the pulpit and wonder how I even came up with that analogy about propitiation, or that illustration about God’s grace. I haven’t a clue how I come up with these random sayings or truths on the spot. Somehow though, I think it has something to do with my almost daily prayer for God to give me wisdom.
Something I have really learned about God in this semester is how much he blesses us when we spend time with him. One of the biggest, if not the biggest excuse, for college kids to not be in the Word daily is that they’re too busy. I have always had a problem with devotional consistency (almost sounds like an oxymoron doesn’t it?). However, in this, the hardest semester of my life, I have, by the grace of God, been able to keep a consistent routine of time in God’s Word and prayer with him. This may very likely go along with the theory that it’s easier to be more disciplined when you’re busy, and that may very well be the case. But I suppose what I’m saying is that I have spent time in God’s Word regularly, and I have taken time to prepare for and speak at a retreat for young people, both of which would seem foolish to some due to my schedule, yet I have yet to fail an assignment or be considered “academically irresponsible.”
I suppose what I’m trying to say here, as I begin to doze off in my bed–it’s getting late you know–is that despite my lack of time and busy schedule, I have spent regular time in communication with my Father in heaven, and he has blessed that. I can’t give you scriptural backing for this idea, which scares me because I always like having scripture to back this kind of thing up, but I believe that like tithing money, when we invest our time in our relationship with our heavenly Father, he will bless that and be sure that it was not spent in vain. I have seen such an idea play out in my life this semester. Relatively speaking, in relationship to every other semester throughout college and high school, this is the semester that I should really be dropping the ball on spiritually–I don’t have any free time AT ALL outside of the little time I make on the weekends and the late night times I write on here. However, by the grace of God I have managed to stay somewhat consistent in my devotions, and he has blessed that by multiplying my time and giving me joy beyond all compare so that no matter my circumstances, no matter my schedule, no matter how inconsequential and frustrating chemistry may be, I am joyful. How is this? Because I find my joy in Christ, my rock, my unchanging fortress of love and truth that does not change or waiver despite my absurdly busy schedule. In finding my joy in Christ, I treat others as best as I can and I grow in love for the God that has saved me because of the finished work of his perfect Son Jesus Christ.
What is this blog about? I have no idea. It was late, I wasn’t tired, and I wanted to write about something. So here you are. Like I said, some of that stuff above may have sounded a bit mystical vague. But I praise God for the wisdom he has given to me in ways I don’t always quite understand, and I am praying for more wisdom always as I seek to become more like his Son so that others may see the magnificent glory of our holy God and his perfect love for us.
Praise God that he has provided me with much wisdom since I began praying for it just a couple of years ago. He is almighty and powerful and merciful to me daily. Praise him for allowing you to wake up in the morning. Find your joy in Christ–the One who does not change despite your agenda or attitude. In him you will find a peace that surpasses all understanding. Pray that God will give you the ability and the motivation to continue in or start spending time with him daily so that you may grow into a deeper relationship with your heavenly Father that extends beyond traveling mercies and food blessings.
If you learned or cared about nothing else in this post, read this: God is who he says he is and he is going to do what he says he is going to do. Find your joy in this God and praise him for saving you into peace with him forever because of his Son’s perfect life, work on the cross, and resurrection from the dead. Spend time with your Father as a son spends time with the Father he loves so much.
Thanks for reading if you’ve made it this far. I hope the Holy Spirit has used this post to encourage you or convict you in some way. It’s time for me to go to bed. Sleep well.